Well what can I say, I'm new to the blogging world. So bare with me as I try to show you what my day is like and make it interesting enough for you to read. A little background about myself, I'm 23 years old and I am a married father of 1 with 1 on the way. I guess this blog is kind of a way to help me express what a young father goes through, especially when they are not financially stable. I became a dad at the age of 21 when most kids my age were just starting to take advantage of their freedom. I had to learn that there are consequences to your actions. In this case the consequence was growing up faster than I anticipated. I have to say that My son Isaiah is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I'm sure that I will feel the same way of my next child(We find out 10/22/2008 what the sex is). I have no regrets about how my life has turned out so far because I know that god has a plan for me, and I am very hard headed so I knew that I was going to take the long road.It was an early February morning when my son was born, I was averaging over 80 hours a week at my job at the time, so I was pretty tired to put it lightly. That day was a blur around 7:30 Isaiah Giovanni Spencer was born weighing 8 pounds even (He was the biggest baby in the nursery). It was a C-section so I spent the first two hours alone with my son. What an experience that was. I was scared I didn't know what to do if the baby cried or how to hold him. It's crazy how vulnerable you feel at that point when you want to do everything but can't do anything. I've learned slowly what it takes to be a father through example
s set from my family and friends. I had always heard that the birth of a child is a beautiful thing. Let me tell you that the Operation Room during a C-section is anything but. The smell of flesh being cauterized as it's being cut and separated by the attending physician. I felt like I was watching a turkey being cut open during thanksgiving (Only it was a gross smelling turkey and not a delicious one.... lol). I watched as the doctors and nurses tugged at my wife's belly all the while trying not to pass out from the sight of her uterus. I watched in horror and amazement when the doctor pulled out the baby looking purple with a slightly pointed head from being stuck in the birth canal. I almost panicked when I didn't hear him cry, almost a minute passed before he finally let out a loud health cry. That was the longest minute of my life. I joined him in the waterworks, I couldn't contain them I cried like a baby.
s set from my family and friends. I had always heard that the birth of a child is a beautiful thing. Let me tell you that the Operation Room during a C-section is anything but. The smell of flesh being cauterized as it's being cut and separated by the attending physician. I felt like I was watching a turkey being cut open during thanksgiving (Only it was a gross smelling turkey and not a delicious one.... lol). I watched as the doctors and nurses tugged at my wife's belly all the while trying not to pass out from the sight of her uterus. I watched in horror and amazement when the doctor pulled out the baby looking purple with a slightly pointed head from being stuck in the birth canal. I almost panicked when I didn't hear him cry, almost a minute passed before he finally let out a loud health cry. That was the longest minute of my life. I joined him in the waterworks, I couldn't contain them I cried like a baby.You would think that after an ordeal like that that it would hit you that you have become a father right? Wrong! It took me a couple months before I could comprehend the magnitude of what had just happened. I had just become a father at 21. I must say that I am luckier than some because I had the support of my family and friends. I worked a lot during my wife's pregnancy and I know I wasn't there like she needed me to be, but I worked my ass off everyday so that we could save up for our first apartment and the little thing that we needed for
the baby. I was the Field Service Manager for a local private contract security company so I was working all the time. There were nights when I would get home late (or early in the morning depending on how you want to look at it) from a long shift take a shower and as soon as I lie down to go to sleep.... Ring, Ring. The phone rings and the uniform comes back on and I'm off again to work. This was my life for a while, we had to sacrifice in order to achieve a greater goal. I have a new appreciation for my parents now that I am a dad, I can understand now why I was disciplined and I can't remember a time when I went without food to eat. I going to make sure that my kids never do either.
the baby. I was the Field Service Manager for a local private contract security company so I was working all the time. There were nights when I would get home late (or early in the morning depending on how you want to look at it) from a long shift take a shower and as soon as I lie down to go to sleep.... Ring, Ring. The phone rings and the uniform comes back on and I'm off again to work. This was my life for a while, we had to sacrifice in order to achieve a greater goal. I have a new appreciation for my parents now that I am a dad, I can understand now why I was disciplined and I can't remember a time when I went without food to eat. I going to make sure that my kids never do either.
The first year goes by so fast, you can hardly even believe it. I'm getting ready for his second birthday already, where does the time go? First I watched him as he learned to hold his head up, then I watched as he learned to crawl (He used to do a low crawl that reminded me of basic training, Hooah!!), and about a month before his first birthday he took his first steps. I'm 23 and 
I feel like I'm getting old. Did my parents feel this way too? I'm sure that this next year is going to be a blur as well. I can see that he wants to talk but can't yet form the words. His expressions are as clear as water, he will let you know what it is that he wants (No words are necessary). He lets you know that he loves you as much as you love him when you walk through the door and he runs in to your arms. What a stress reliever. The hugs for no reason, lying in your lap while you watch a movie (or watching "Breed All About It" on youtube). I don't think there is anything in this world better than having
a child. I will never understand how someone could hurt there child or kill them even. I just can't even imagine ever doing that to my son. When I heard the Caylee Anthony story on the news I was angry (To put it lightly). How can you go a month before reporting your daughter missing? I personally think that Casey Anthony killed her daughter and wants everyone to think that she is actually missing and not dead. I pray that she is alive and that she is not hurt in any way, but I feel in my heart that the worst has happened and that now the culpable person must pay(For help finding Caylee Anthony please visit http://www.helpfindcaylee.com/ or call 1-800-423-TIPS). Being the same age as Casey Anthony I feel that we as young adults get a bad wrap but when you see pieces of shit like Casey Anthony who have no compassion even for their own seed, I can see why we are viewed this way. Anyways I'm rambling now.
I feel like I'm getting old. Did my parents feel this way too? I'm sure that this next year is going to be a blur as well. I can see that he wants to talk but can't yet form the words. His expressions are as clear as water, he will let you know what it is that he wants (No words are necessary). He lets you know that he loves you as much as you love him when you walk through the door and he runs in to your arms. What a stress reliever. The hugs for no reason, lying in your lap while you watch a movie (or watching "Breed All About It" on youtube). I don't think there is anything in this world better than having
a child. I will never understand how someone could hurt there child or kill them even. I just can't even imagine ever doing that to my son. When I heard the Caylee Anthony story on the news I was angry (To put it lightly). How can you go a month before reporting your daughter missing? I personally think that Casey Anthony killed her daughter and wants everyone to think that she is actually missing and not dead. I pray that she is alive and that she is not hurt in any way, but I feel in my heart that the worst has happened and that now the culpable person must pay(For help finding Caylee Anthony please visit http://www.helpfindcaylee.com/ or call 1-800-423-TIPS). Being the same age as Casey Anthony I feel that we as young adults get a bad wrap but when you see pieces of shit like Casey Anthony who have no compassion even for their own seed, I can see why we are viewed this way. Anyways I'm rambling now.I'll try to stay more on point for my next post, I'll try to give you tips on how to take care of a baby (Remember I'm still learning) and if you have tips for me, by all means send them to me. I'm open to all suggestions. Thanks for taking the time to read my blog, I hope you enjoyed the post.
